I’ve said things
Things no human being should ever say
Things no one should even think
Things that would make my grandmother (even my mother) blush.
And I know he feels them
Every spiteful bit of myself that gets flung at him.
Right now, I don’t even care
My feelings are mine
My feelings are my truth
My feelings should matter to someone shouldn’t they?
And forgiveness is a foreign concept
I can’t right now
I won’t tomorrow
But maybe I’ll have to some day
Not for him
(Photograph by Priscilla)